May love and laughter light your days, and warm your heart and home.
May good and faithful friends be yours, wherever you may roam.
May peace and plenty bless your world with joy that long endures.
May all life's passing seasons bring the best to you and yours!
~ Robert Frost


Welcome to my blog. This is my story of how I faced my risk of breast cancer, the decisions I made, the support I received and my week by week recovery from surgery. I chose to have a prophylactic bilateral mastectomy with immediate DIEP reconstruction at Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center in Boston (March 2010). For more information on my 'Medical Team' please see tab above. I also have a wonderful circle of friends who have supported me throughout. They have provided us with lots of delicious meals and desserts. Many of those recipes are included above under "Feed the Flap" recipes. "Feed the Flap" is a term I coined when trying to increase my abdominal (fat) flap to ensure that I was a good candidate for the DIEP procedure. This was not something recommended by any medical professional, it was just something that made sense to me. I think it worked!! Feel free to join me on this journey and feel free to post comments.

Select the tabs on the left side marked Week 1, Week 2, Week 3..... to go immediately to the surgical/recovery part of this blog.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Loving Life.....Questioning.....

Some days are just so wonderful and today is one of those days! I am home with MeiMei. We've gone on walk, painted and picked pumpkins! We had a lovely lunch of mac & cheese and mandarin oranges. What I really like is that this is just an ordinary day. As I face one of the biggest decisions of my life, what I really want is just more ordinary days with my family.

I don't want regrets about 'jumping the gun'. My biggest fear is that I will end up with lifelong residual pain because I couldn't continue to live with the risk (50 - 85%) of breast cancer. By the time I have my surgery I hope to have total confidence in my decision. However, in the meantime, I will question everything.

As breast cancer continues to target those all around us I am reminded that I may be jumping the gun (before a diagnosis of invasive bc), but I continue to see just how devastating the diagnosis of bc is when it strikes. Although I worry that my LCIS could be spreading as I type this, I am comforted to know that statistically I am still a Stage 0.

In the next month I will meet with two plastic surgeons in Boston, a breast surgeon in Boston and my current breast surgeon. By the end of October I hope to have my game plan in place. When you are feeling just fine and having an ordinary day it seems so out-of-place that in a few months I will be recovering from a bilateral mastectomy and DIEP reconstruction. Well, I think I will get back to my ordinary day and finishing painting.

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